Discovering New Trails, Recovering Old Things*

* Things = Feelings, but that seemed way too melodramatically corny for a title

A significant portion of my daily duress comes from feeling like I’m not making the most of my free time during the day. I know, super spoiled first world problem, right? But one of the main perks of piecing together this hodge podge medley of part-time jobs is being able to hop around town when everyone else is cooped up in offices and meetings. Sunshine! No crowds! You can almost drive on the 405 without hitting your brakes!

This morning after doing some Oiselle sales stuff I stood up, shut down the computer, locked the girls up in a sports bra, and bolted out the door without a single thought about the rest of the stuff on my to do list.

After a 20 minute drive (woulda been 40 in traffic) I pulled up to Quail Hill Preserve with a very vague game plan: explore a few miles of a new trail. I’ve been sticking around 4-5 miles lately, partly because it’s comfortable and partly because I’m scared pushing it any further will flare up my injury again. So anyway, I figured that’s probably what I’d run today.

The trail starts with a pretty gnarly half mile hill, and since I’m in bad anything-other-than-flat shape, I walked that bitch then shuffled into a slow jog once I got to the top.

Luckily in Orange County a lot of our “trails” are really just man-made, un-paved paths, which means there aren’t a ton of road hazards you have to worry about face-planting over if you get a little too caught up taking in the scenery. Which is good, because I did a lot more looking up than I did looking where I was stepping.

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sweet, sweet dirt, my concrete-abused legs love you

Nothing felt spectacular, not bad or painful, just not OMG LOVE RUNNING GREAT – maybe because I was so preoccupied fretting about all the descending I was doing…

“Uhhh you know we’re going to have to turn around and run UP all these nice little hills, right? Your legs are most definitely not ready for that.”

Shut up, brain.

At mile two where I planned to turn around the trail popped open at Bommer Meadow, with a god-send bathroom and water fountain, which I helped myself to.

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also a trail map that you can’t see because, hiiiiiii selfie

I decided I’d come this far, might as well explore the meadow trail a little if for no good reason other than prolonging the march back up the hills that brought me here. I’m not sure if it was the bladder emptying or a sudden moment of clarity (or maybe someone was smoking something funky behind the shelter), but I couldn’t stop looking around like, “holy shit is this really Orange County?”

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shut up, Irvine, get outta here with your cute little bridges

I turned around at 2.5 with an extra pep in my step, ready to tackle the climb back to the car. Another mile beeped on my watch, another hill crested, a nice tailwind joined me and before I knew it I was back where I started, at the top of that ol’ bitch overlooking the parking lot.

But I didn’t feel like stopping yet.

So I ran down it.

And then I still didn’t feel like stopping, so I ran through the parking lot, past my car, and hopped on the Quail Hill Loop which I thought I remembered from the map down in the meadow was a mile long.

“I can run another mile!”

I picked up the pace a bit, said hi to a guy as I passed him, and my watch beeped for 6 miles. It’s been a while since I’ve run six miles and felt this good.

Half a mile went by and the trail didn’t seem to be looping back towards home anytime soon, but I didn’t care. Chug, chug, chug, my stride finally feels natural and rhythmic instead of forced and choppy. Finally a bend, and around the turn a big ol’ hill. Ok, you ran all those earlier you didn’t think you could, what’s one more? Garmin beeped for 7 miles. Pushed up another hill, and at the top – my car shining down in the distance. Just kidding it’s coated in dirt and sand but I refuse to wash it because we’re in a drought and that seems frivolously irresponsible. Regardless, the finish was in sight.

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I forgive thee, hill, for I know you’ll make me stronger and because you look like you could belong in ohio

I descended that final hill (the loop was 1.8 miles, ftr) and jogged around the parking lot like that stupid OCD watch-hawker everyone likes to make fun of to clock an even 7.5 miles. The last time I ran that far was December 28th – back when I still thought I was training for Carlsbad, before I’d been diagnosed by Dr AJ or became a regular at my chiro, when I was cursing every mile and my rebelling body but was too stubborn to wave the white flag.

Here I am almost five months later, finally back in a place of pre-run excitement instead of dread, where “ah what the hell let’s keep going!” is a mid-run thought, and the post-run basking is in endorphins, not sorrows or frustrations.

If you’re dealing with burnout or waning enthusiasm towards running, I strongly encourage you to hit up a new scene. Search Garmin Connect or Strava for other users’ routes, poll the locals, or just pull up Google Maps and head towards the first decent-size plot of green you see. It’s amazing what a fresh view can do for your outlook.

Literally and figuratively, I guess.

shady canyon garmin

my garmin connect activity for this run, if you’re interested

Sarah OUaL

Race Cheer Squad for Hire (jk I’ll do it for free)

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I’ll be damned if it wasn’t 10x more fun than I thought it’d be.

When my (admittedly short) list of friends all had other stuff to do I considered renegging on my OC Marathon cheer plans. Standing on the side of a road at 6:30am cowbelling by myself seemed slightly less than awesome…

‘But you told all those people you’d be there, at the top of the hill at mile 11.5 to push them through the pain cave! Come on, what else do you have to do? Hey, let’s make a poster! Is CVS still open?’

Lucky for me Kristina ended up being able to come which made it double the fun (and double the noise – sorry Back Bay residents.) We camped our happy non-running asses out on the course for three hours yelling every motivational or funny thing we could think of.

It was a fucking blast.

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the start of the “parade”

We got to see a ton of familiar faces – Pam, Sarah, Monica, Gisele, Allison, Kat, Caroline, our neighbor friend Kristin, reader Tracy, a few other people who called out (hi again, whoever you were!), strangers wearing Oiselle who I crazy shouted “LOVE YOUR SHORTS/TOP/OISELLE!” at, and about 15,000 other strangers. We yelled “Go ____!” at anyone wearing anything that stood out (superman! tutu! orange shirt! team jake! oakland raiders!), and cycled through the following mantras eight bagillion times, somehow without annoyance:

  • “Way to go, runners!”
  • “Looking goooooood!”
  • “Yeah, you got this!”
  • “Keep it up, you’re doing great!”
  • “Wooo(voice crack)hoooooo!”

We saw a dude run by in full firefighter gear and were too preoccupied yelling how awesome he was at him to get a pic, so after he passed I grabbed my phone and took off on (what felt like) a dead sprint to recreate the moment. Good god you’d think I just finished the marathon myself the way I was aching and groaning. Creeek! Errr! Crack! Trying to move quickly after being upright and essentially immobile other than your cowbell arm for a long period of time is not advised. But I powered through because seriously how cool is this dude? (And good-looking, to boot.)

fireman joe oc marathon

After Instagram stalking, I learned this is Fireman Joe

He ran the full marathon in his fire gear, including a 40 pound air tank (how heavy does your hydration pack feel now?) to raise money for the National Fallen Firefighters Association. According to this article Sunday was his fourth marathon, and he’s completed two half-ironmans and two FULL IRONMANS in his gear. Amazing, easily takes the cake for the most badass thing of the morning.

* Oiselle Haute Volee teammate Allison winning the half was a very close second. :)

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smiling, cruising, rocking the shit out of that elite Oiselle kit to a 2 minute win

Already looking forward to the next race to hold down the sideline at – Kristina and I have a good long list of sign ideas ready…

Once my cowbell blisters heal.

Sarah OUaL

Participant, Competitor, Fan, in Harmony. (and the cocky jock phases that preceded)

Nancy Kerrigan was the first athlete I remember pretending to be in our living room. I’d stare wide-eyed sitting on the floor watching her performance, and jump up pretending to triple salchow on the carpet. Then there was Kenny Lofton, Lisa Fernandez when softball went pro, Shannon Miller and at least one gymnast from each of the following Olympics, Misty and Kerri…

I’d beg my parents for any piece of gear with their name on it, rock screened tees with their faces blown to 10x life size, and shamelessly stand in autograph lines (only to inevitably become shy-paralyzed at the front) for ages to get the chance to meet my idols.

But somewhere along the road, it became “uncool” to be a fan of things that weren’t boy bands or cheesy big screen actors. High school probably, where all the best things in life became “uncool” – naps, the library, being single, hanging out with your grandparents, and bangs, to name a few. So I put my collection of idolized athlete memorabilia in a box under my bed, pitched the wall posters, and focused on being an athlete myself.


from the glory days scrapbook

Back in high school, playing sports meant being competitive, and being competitive meant being an asshole. I went to a pretty small school, but we always had great sports teams and some righteous rivalries. The only things I was better at than sports were being cocky and shit talking. Pitcher death glares? Spikes up into second? Telling freethrow shooters I could see their polka dot underwear through their white shorts? Did it all. A lot of girls didn’t like me (shocker), including some of my own teammates, but sports were about winning, not making girlfriends! Who cares if the Firelands girls key my car on their way out to the bus? They just mad cuz I’m better than them!

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true: I keep this pic on my phone so I can re-read how I once was awesome when I’m not feeling so awesome

Each summer I played competitive travel softball, which served three purposes: 1) to not get fat and rusty over break 2) to be seen by college recruiters and 3) to check my outrageous ego a little. I was a mid-packer on a nationally-ranked team, learning how to scrap my way around to keep up instead of being the star. It was tough and not always pretty, but it was fun. Because we won, and winning is fun.

From there I went to college and had my first experience being on a bad team. Losing sucked, we sucked, and for some reason nobody really seemed to care. Going hard at practice brought resentment, dedication was confused with cockiness, and showing any passion garnered chuckles and “sit down, freshman!” Softball wasn’t fun anymore, and it wasn’t just because we lost so damn much. My competitive edge floated out the window as the team’s ambivalence took over, and I found myself giving equal amounts of fucks about winning, losing, and sport in general = zero. Do you know the only thing worse than hating something you once loved? Suddenly feeling NOTHING towards it.

sarah pitching

So my (realized or not) peer pressured self let the coolness of competition go the way of that rad Lisa Fernandez bat and beach volleyball poster hanging on my wall. I found other things to care about – school, internships, Brian – and didn’t step on a court or field again for many years. Sayonara, sports. Maybe we’ll meet again someday…

Somewhere around here I started running. Just to keep in shape and clear my head of all the upcoming graduation and “what am I doing with my life?” drama (<—- hahaha, irony.) When I signed up for my first half marathon in May 2009, I still didn’t think of running as a sport – old Competitor Sarah was still fully vested in retirement thankyouverymuch.

Around the beginning of 2012, just when I started training for the Eugene Marathon, I felt the spark come back. Not the death glare smackdown, “I won you lost” competitor I used to be, but something new.

I hungered for challenge, fed off improvement, got high off success. Good workouts excited me and bad ones gave me determination. I finally felt like an athlete again, but instead of facing opponents across the court or at the plate, the only one I was battling was myself. Is it really a game if you’re the only one playing? I never set out to run races with the intention to win – hello I’m not delusional – but once I realized how much victory could be found in my own sole performance it opened a whole new world of sport to me.

We could stop here, sign off as a real narcissistic look at my turbulent journey through sport and how I got to be the runner I am today. But where I meant for this post to go before straying off course is back to those young days of fandom. When running started being more than just exercise, I slowly fell more and more immersed in the community surrounding the sport – digitally and in real life. Fellow marathoners, newbies just getting started, people faster than me, slower than me, more dedicated than me. People who ran for fun and who trained like the Olympics were coming. And eventually, some people who actually were training because the Olympics were coming.


with my training partner, Kristina, after her first marathon (CIM ‘12) – I’ve never cried at a finish line of my own, but shed some tears here

I’d found this seemingly never-ending support system to draw motivation, knowledge, sometimes empathy, and always excitement from that totally changed my attitude towards sport. Sure in softball every play has a winner or loser – the pitcher and batter can’t both succeed in an at bat – but in running, we can all win our own race. Case in point: Shalane got beat by six other runners in Boston, but set a huge PR and executed her race plan perfectly. Her 2:22 is the fastest American time for the course, and would’ve won every single year since 2003. No, she didn’t leave with the laurel wreath, but you’d be a real jerk to call that performance a total loss.

*sidenote: this is very much not a “you’re all winners!” pitch. I don’t agree with that way of thinking at all, but for adults past their prime who literally have 0.1% chance of being an outright winner at a race… I think you get my point

For everyone 1% of this communal mojo I take in, I feel it spilling out of me 50 times over. Never was that more apparent than while I sat glued to my computer on Marathon Monday for hours stalking, cheering, and heartbreaking for other people’s races which I had literally no direct connection to. The happy tears and chest bursting with secondhand pride would’ve seemed totally moronic to any non-runner, but I know everyone “in the tribe” has felt that exact same way before.

The point is, online or in person, training partner or celebrity crush, it feels cool again to be super geeked out about other people. To be a fan of the sport, and a fan of the people in it. Hang posters of your idols on your wall, stand in line for autographs, and wear someone’s name on your shirt like a total groupie. Your high school peer pressure isn’t working on me this time, universe.

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Oiselle Team clan posing with (then new) teammate, Lauren Fleshman at the Eugene Marathon expo 2013


Oiselle’s calling it the “Rise of the Fan Girl” — I’m on board. I’m also definitely dying my hair back to blonde.

  • Who’s racing OC Marathon? Not running but looking to cheer? My cowbell and I will be at mile 11.5 near Upper Newport Bay – let me know if you want a yell or to join the fangirl’ing.

Sarah OUaL

** I’ve been blogging at Oiselle as the “Evolving FanGirl”, trying to shed some light on the professional side of running and how it can totally be a sport you participate in at one level, and follow like a crazed animal fan at another. They may not serve hot dogs and plastic cup beer at track meets (yet), but maybe someday those grandstands will be the hot tickets in town and ESPN will mention track & field more than once every four years. Anyway, related-but-random interjection slash selfish plug. **